Self identy, school, and behaviour.

Lately Alex has been starting to identify himself as a native boy. Yesterday he went to another pow wow with his dad and sister. He became really interested in the dances there that he was watching the dancers' feet closely. His dad's friend offered to teach him some dances today when they go back. Last night, Alex was talking about how he wants to live on the reserve with his dad when he grows up and that "indians" live on the reserve. He asked me if white people liked "indians". I told him that I am white and I like him!! That brought a big grin on his face. I think he wanted to make sure I'd still love him no matter who he is or where he is. I hope he realizes that now. It's just wonderful watching his face brighten up when he talks about the pow wow and learning how to dance. It's like something inside him waking up. He's finding his way in this world. I'm hoping he and Sky are able to carry on their culture and traditions so it wouldn't get lost. We already know the tribe and clan their grandma and family are from. It's slowly dying right now because people forget. But to our advantage, children are very curious and they will remember for us if we tell them everything they need to know and keep the legends alive.

*The word, "indians" were said by Alex. This is no way of trying to offend anyone who may be offended.*

The first day of school came and went. Alex was extremely nervous but he got through the first day a lot better than expected. I was so proud of him for handling his first day well. Sky had no problems and loves school. The only thing that disappointed her was that she only could go to school twice a week instead of full time like she wanted. Next year, she will start going full time. Sky has started gymnastics and was very shy surprisingly. It took a few pushes from her teacher and myself to finally get her involved.

I finally took Sky to the doctor about her behaviour. She throws a long temper and becomes very frustrated easily. She even becomes aggressive and the last time she was aggressive, she threw a cup at her dad and he got a black eye. I became concerned when she started going through the kitchen like crazy looking for sugar or whatever has sugar in it and throws a fit if she doesn't get it. When she manages to sneak some sugary food out and eats it, her behaviour becomes even more difficult with her screaming and crying over little things. For example, if she trips and fall but doesn't hurt herself badly, she would make a huge deal out of it and demand a bandaid. If I try to hug her, she would scream at me for hugging her. So that was why I decided it was a good idea to take her to the doctor to see what he thought. He said that children of divorced parents tend to be a bit more aggressive. And sugar adds to it so I have thrown out all the pudding, cookies, and all that stuff. I'm going to teach her how to eat better food and why sugary food isn't healthy for her. Sky's teacher has also asked that parents don't send unhealthy food so that would be very helpful for her to learn about healthy food. As for her dad and I being divorced, we will have to talk to Sky about it and see how she feels about it. He and I are still good friends and he tries to be very involved iwth the kids' lives as much as he can. If all those stuff does not work then Sky would need to see a pediatrician. I'm hoping she goes back to the happy child she used to be!!

We may be moving once again. I have a chance to buy a new house. It would be in a great area and we would have a big backyard. The kids would love that. I have already talked to the landlord about breaking my lease and he has agreed to let me go only if I give him two months notice so things seems to be falling into place.